Whew! I feel like i haven’t had a solid moment to sit and write on here abou what’s been going on, much less to talk about anything substantial. The near future isn’t looking all too auspicious either, but maybe i can queue up some posts for while i’m abroad. Anyway, what have i been up to lately?
First off, i’ve been taking care of all the loose ends at school. I had to meet with a few people and do a bunch of forms, but i am finally readmitted for the fall! An i registered for classes as well, which was nice. A few people told to me take a smaller than usual courseload, so i’m anxious to see how that turns out. I’ve always taken 5 courses, but as my therapist pointed out, that didn’t entirely work out for me and now is the time to change, not to go back to any old ways. So four classes it is: philosophy, spanish, personality theories and abnormal psych. I’m so excited! I haven’t been a full time student in a long time so i’m nervous about that, buy also quite excited. I really love school and am eager for the chance to really settle in here.
Also on the college front, i got my apartment! It’s a one bedroom that, in a rather sudden change of events, i have all to myself. I’m really looking forward to having my own place and not having to worry about getting along or coordinating with roomies. Of course i’m nervous, but i feel like i’m in a good enough place, and that this will be much less stressful for me. I already have gotten such cute things for my room and the bathroom! So that’s all starting to come together too.
Things have been coming together so nicely lately, and i am trying to remind myself that this is all a result of being healthy and really committing to recovery. I’m on martha’s vineyard this weekend with two friends, and know it wouldn’t have been nearly as enjoyable if i were really struggling. The freedom to eat what i want extends far beyond meal times. I can’t wait to share some of the delicious food i’ve had here too!
This upcoming week is going to be busy busy busy. I have a few appointments, am volunteering at Bible camp at my church, and working at whole foods of course! It’s hard to believe but a week from wednesday i’ll be on my way to copenhagan with my dad for our cruise! Like with everything else, i’m nervous and excited to go. But i know that new challenges and opportunities are my chances to grow and change.
I just finished Donald Miller’s book A Million Miles in a Thousand Years and it totally inspired me and helped put recovery into perspective. It’s a really great book and a quick read, i highly recommend it. It talks all about our lives as stories, and how to write better ones, more epic ones. I know that i have ambitions, and those are what give my life meaning. I know that all that i’ve been through has made me who i am, which has made me happier and more grateful and probably a better person. When i go back to school, i want to join some service groups and experience more meaningful self-sacrifice in a way, in that i’m giving myself to benefit others. I’m sure it’ll help make everything better than it already feels, and i’m already so happy with how things have been coming together and all that God is doing in my life. I hope that as i continue to get better and more able to give to others, i can see what He uses me to do in the lives of people i know and meet.
Anyway, i’m headed off to the beach now before heading home tonight and back to a hectic week. Hopefully i’ll be able to embrace challenges better this week, and with the new perspective i’ve acquired that sees challenge as a good thing, something that leads to growth and better things. Like i mentioned a few posts ago, it’s necessary to pause in the pursuit of happiness and just be happy, which is exactly where i find myself today. Good friends, good weather, a good book (a memoir Nicholas Sparks wrote!) and far more blessings than i could have ever expected!