today was nothing special, but it was a good night, full of reunions and scattergories. i suppose i started my day off rather cheerfully, with a banana flower and nutella. i saw this online and decided i simply had to try making it!
the rest of the day was boring but productive. i have a dentist appointment tomorrow that i’ve been putting off for 2.5 years now… dreading it. absolutely dreading it. i see all kinds of doctors on the regular, but i refuse to see a dentist. however, tomorrow i have to face my fate. not excited at all. however, i finally got feathers today!
i really like them. i really don’t like my body. it’s nice to have a positive feature though, or one that makes me smile whenever i see it. clearly, my body image is still terrible. i wish i could just get over it! i was doing so well for so long and now it’s just harder…and all i see is my chubbiness. anyway, i won’t let myself dwell on it, since i know it’s probably all in my head anyway. so moving on….
after i got my hair done i did some shopping and then met up with friends from my day program in may. it was definitely nice to see them, especially since we’re all in pretty good places. three of us had dinner and then we went to visit our other friend who’s back in residential. it was a nice evening of laughs and game playing, and all of us talking about the changes coming up in our lives, going back to school, etc. it was nice to be focusing on the positives, the things we get from health, than trying to convince ourselves to be healthy. definitely a change, and a really nice one.
i can’t believe a week from tomorrow i’ll be off on my road trip. i’m nervous, but excited. i think it’ll be great and i’m looking forward to seeing my friends, although i already miss everyone terribly. tomorrow is full of appointments, and then weather permitting, a walk along the Charles River. my sister gets home in a few days! i’m so excited to see her! and also to see what goodies she gets me in Turkey 🙂
at peace, not in pieces 